life comes with a blank paper since i was born i come without anything after that i started to have frds schoolmates neighbors lovers colleagues the blank paper becomes more and more colorful and fill with different kinda emotional and languages when i m thinking about the past i should think about originally i was born with nothing and now even i lose one of the things it cannot claim to be a lost cox i have not owned it in day 1 even my life is not owned by me i hate the feeling of fluffy unhappiness and sadness however this is part of my life well i dunno what i can do or what i should do except learning to let things go start to plan for my next step hope i can get it i dunno how long will it be however i will start the do the research well i cannot remain the status quo in fact i should do what my feeling lead to do watched a movie before the woman in the movie said there is a place of our body once we put the needle into it we can forget all the bad memory is it true? i really wanna know i hate myself cox my memory is too good esp for the bad and sad experiences can music heal/ can movie heal/ i dunno maybe well choking until one day cannot breath things will end and return to the beginning | 
